http://prairieguy.wordpress.com/2007/07/27/questions-for-my-birth-mother/

Tears are streaming down my face; as I reply to this.
But I thought I would answer some questions for you from my stand; I am a natural mom:
No, at the time I didn't realize what I was doing. I felt alone in a nightmare that I couldn't wake from.
It was not easy to lay there; not knowing where to turn for help. I laid awake; because I just wanted to be with you; just me and you. When we were alone; I'd talk to you and tell you "Momma is here." And I always wanted to be there; I never wanted this.
Regret? That second.
I wanted to scream in the car; the whole way home. My screams wouldn't come out; they were trapped;as the way I felt I was trapped. I hear those scream in my hearts, of hearts as I write this now.
The final hour; I was with people I do not trust today. Yes; I regretted this decision since it happened.
It feels like a death; to lose part of oneself; to a future unknowing. Tears of sorrow; and they have never lessened; I still have those tears of sorrow; and you will be 15 on August 14.
I; only heard you cry; when you came into this world. And; I remember that cry as it was a second ago. That is locked in my heart; of hearts. No; you didn't understand the decision made on your behalf; how could you? You were just my sweet Innocent baby.
For me; it was a lot worse then the loss of my 1st love.
No; I wouldn't do this all over again. I would run, run, and hide; so they couldn't have my precious baby boy.
Yes; you were very wanted in the womb.
Yes; look for me; you would find a momma who regrets not knowing you; baby boy.
No; your father didn't stay. I don't know if he even knows what happened to us:( Yes; I have another child. Brittany; your sister; is 10 years old. Yes; she knows all about you; and wishes you were with us; as I do.

Yes; the person who wrote this; used the forbidden word. But made good points. I just do not think he realizes how hurtful that word is.